Gah.

So I can't sleep...I'm tired, kind of but I can't sleep...and I don't know why.
I also started sobbing over a prayer I read on one of the fertility sites I'm on...it was rather pathetic (me sobbing, not the prayer).

Yea...so.... I don't know.... Im having an argument over yahoo messenger with E.M. about nonsense. Baiscally we are arguing over having a real argument in person because he's never home. Seriously, the most I've seen him in about a month has been for rehersal on Saturdays and for the inseminations this cycle...

I'm trying to be nice and explain I miss him....a lot. I'm trying not to be clingy, or immature about the situation. I *know* I can't have my way....I know he is being responsible and taking care of us and finishing school and making it so that we can try for a baby and I can stay home and not stress.... so why am I in tears? I mean...I miss having a fight in person.... that's pretty pathetic. I miss his kisses, him cuddling me, him holding me and touching my tummy.... I miss it all. I miss him in general.

Gah...and on top of this stupid emotional crap I have cramps and lots of lower back pain :(


-Jess